August 22, 2013

Moments

Quirks. We all have them, we all know people who have them, and we can point them out in everyone else. I have a quirk. Or maybe it's not so much a quirk as it is something else I can't think of a name for.

Sometimes, when I'm trying to write, or I'm thinking, or planning, or I'm in that strange place between sleep and awake, I'll imagine moments in my future. Wondering when I will experience these moments, these events, what will be going through my mind when I do. And sitting there or laying there, I tell myself, "Remember this moment." Remember this moment, the rain on the car window and the soft music my family is listening to. The seat belt over my waist and the head rest pressing into my head. Remember all these things when you finally get to that place you're dreaming of in your future.

And some of those moments have come to pass. When we were on the plane to Germany, my mind went back to when I was packing, folding a scarf and wondering if I would be able to sleep on the plane. "Remember this moment." And I did.

Once it has passed, it is gone. I don't always remember the moments because they are for a certain point in my future. I did that yesterday. I don't remember where I was or what it was for, but one day, that moment will probably come back into my memory, and then it will be gone. It's the remembering, if only for a second, that is worth so much.

When change comes, we try to make moments happen. I don't think the importance of memories really hits us until after we graduate high school. Maybe a little as we prepare for this huge step in our lives, but we have a whole summer ahead of us. The freedom of our recent accomplishment, and most likely, friends to share the sunshine and summer with. And then the fall comes, and the change with it. And college is one month away, and whether you're going, or your friends are going, you're lucky if it hits you a month before the goodbyes. It might hit you a week before, or maybe just a couple of days. And you cram as much as you can into the time you have left. Normal things that you do all the time, but suddenly, it's not so normal anymore, because you know this is the last time for a long time.

And you begin creating moments, grasping at the average because you aren't prepared for this. And you tell your parents, "It just hit me that my friends and I are going separate ways. We'll only see each other on the weekends and we'll be too busy to talk all the time. It's just going to be so weird." Be prepared for it to "hit" you several more times before, during, and after your life shifts.

You won't always have a camera to capture a candid smile, a recorder so you can replay the  laughter, or a video cam so you can re-watch the bonding. You don't need those things to remember. You just have live in the moment, you take a deep breath, and you allow it to saturate your heart, to stamp that memory inside you and not forget.

And the goodbyes come, and maybe you'll be the one leaving, going to experience a new adventure that is yours alone, or maybe you'll be the one staying, wondering what's next and crying as your friend leaves you behind. The new chapter of your life is beginning, and all you really want to do is re-read the previous paragraph because it was just so, so good.

In the days to come, all of the changes will "hit" you again, and again, and again. You will get into a new routine, and when you're eating breakfast on the run because you overslept and you grab your books and your mind is filled with all the new things you're learning, there will be a second when everything freezes. You know the feeling, the realization, the moment it "hits" you again. The same thing that happens when you're getting ready for work, washing the sleep from your eyes and putting on your nice clothes because you have to look like somebody. You look up and meet your own eyes in the mirror and....this is now. This is your life. This is what you prepared for, what you wondered was going to be like. And it is here. It's amazing and confusing, it's life and it's yours. It has begun, you've started reading the next chapter. It's wonderful, you love it, but sometimes, all you want to do is go back, read the beginning again, and your heart will crack a little because you know there is no way to go back, no way to recreate precious experiences.

But you will have moments to remember. Sitting at Sonic at 9:30 at night, you sipped your raspberry sweet tea and shared onion rings with your friend and you looked around the picnic table, at the laughter and the sarcasm, the humidity thick in the air, and you thought about how in just a little while, your friend was leaving everyone for six months, you would only be able to talk to her on very sporadic occasions, and you remembered that moment. And you remembered it again when you saw a picture of her with a little baby in the clinic, and the memory was even sweeter.

You remembered the moments, the tang of strawberries and the sweet cream cheese on the fruit pizza your friend brought over for your last non-sleepover sleepover before her wedding, and you knew, in just one week to the minute, you would be standing on a platform, witnessing the biggest change in her life to date. And, one week later, standing on that platform in the pink dress you helped her shop for, fighting back a flood of tears as you watched her kneel and pray with her new husband, you remembered that moment. And were so thankful for it.

So to my friends, to whom these experiences and goodbyes are coming in the next few weeks as some of you go to college, one of you gets married, and the rest of you go back to school or continue with your jobs, remember the moments. Playing volleyball after church in our awesome "new" gym, hanging out on Google, going to lock-ins and birthday celebrations. Remember it all. All the moments, and if you have to, create them so that when you say goodbye, when you sit at church or Sonic and someone is missing, you can transport your mind back to the normal things that are now special occasions. Because yes, what was once something you did all the time now has to be planned, there are time limits and schedules, and each moment becomes sweeter and more special. Capture them. "Remember this moment."




August 20, 2013

Bel Meade Plantation

Another item to cross off my summer bucket list! Today my mom and I toured both the Belmont Mansion and the Bel Meade Plantation. We went to the Belmont Mansion first, and since we were the only two taking the tour and it was all indoors, taking pictures would have been a little awkward. The only one I have is this one where we were sitting in a gazebo waiting for the tour to begin.


We then headed to Bel Meade, which was my favorite because I knew more about it. I'm going back around Christmas, and I'm already excited, it was that much fun. :)



 I don't like pictures of just things, but I don't like standing beside something and just smiling, either - it's like awkwardness level 200. So I decided to make the pictures so awkward they weren't awkward - posing with the props like I lived or worked there. No pictures were allowed inside the mansion, so these were taken on the grounds and outbuildings surrounding it.


the slaves cabin
the dairy barn

the smokehouse
the garden shed
the pump

the carriage house
those horses wouldn't give me the time of day
Like I said, it was a really, really fun day! Bel Meade also has a cafe, and I think offer carriage rides, I want to ask about that. I love love love history, and this is my state, so it was a perfect day for me. :)

I asked questions on the tours, which made me feel awesome because I don't normally talk in public, but I did this time, mostly because the tour guide didn't cover something I wanted him to so I asked. At one point, he covered something about the former owners I knew and I wanted to say "Oh, I know! I know!" :) Always read about a place before you visit, it makes the experience 100 times better, I promise you!

Yay for Tennessee and yay for history! :)


Summer Bucket List: finish five books by only reading them outside; make homemade donuts; eat fruit every day; start running (again-ish); catch a jar full of lightening bugs with Jace and Jackson; have friends over for a cookout and games; buy a bike; go camping; buy colorful tennis shoes; journal every night; blog once a week; complete a DIY; play whiffle ball and win; take the boys to the park; go on a picnic at Defeated; go to the zoo;  go to Belmont Mansion or Bel Meade Plantation; decorate my corner of the office; get some hydrangeas; help clean up the pool area; make a dress with my mom

August 16, 2013

Four


Guess what? At the end of January 2014, those little white boots will belong to little tiny baby feet! Jacob and Christine are expecting their fourth baby, and this time, we have to wait until the birth before we know if it's another little boy or a girl. Are we hoping for a girl? Some of us are (Jace especially!). Will we be disappointed if it's a boy? More dirt and bruises and buzzed heads and muddy jeans and tractor rides? Absolutely not!

Our family is growing, and we're just as excited as we were the first three times!



August 13, 2013

Chocolate Dreams

This recipe is for a single serving of the milkshake called Chocolate Dream.

3-4 scoops of vanilla ice cream


chocolate syrup
(how much you add of this depends on how chocolaty you like it - I use quite a bit)

1 small handful of mini marshmallows 
(or large ones torn into smaller chunks)

1/4 teaspoon almond extract 
(This is optional, but I think it makes the shake. Put in no more the 1/4 tsp. though.)

milk 
(I don't measure this part, but it's usually halfway up the ice cream)

blend
(I use a Magic Bullet)

ice
(This is for when you add too much milk and it's runny. Just add a 2-3 pieces and blend again.)

 Chocolate Dream
my favorite milkshake

Let me know if you try it and what you think!

August 12, 2013

newphews and cookies and such

I really don't have anything to write about, but I've had so many people ask when I'm posting something new that I thought I should at least post something, however random and non related it might be.

The past week without Amie has been busy, lonely, and quiet. Busy because we've had our monthly church meal, shopping (which means making up my hours), a bridal shower, visiting the nursing home, and a goodbye fellowship after church. Lonely because I have no one to talk to when I'm in the pool, and quiet because there isn't anyone playing the piano at 10:30pm every night.

But it's been a good week nonetheless, and with my mom's birthday, a wedding, a trip to Nashville and another to Kentucky, I know this week will pass just as quickly, and then we will only have one left before she's home!

I've been in the baking mood recently, which is completely abnormal for me. I made Oreo bark (2 ingredients, lots of yum), and chocolate chip cookies, which turned out better than my cookies have in ages! We store our chocolate chips above the stove, and since I made them at night and my mom had been cooking all day (quite literally), they were semi-melted and mixed themselves into the dough. Thankfully some stayed in chunks though, and since I put in extra, the result was super chocolaty, chewy cookies. We all know there are days when you just need hot, gooey cookies and ice cold milk!


The reason my mom had been cooking all day was because she had plucked every last grape off of our 3 vines and canned 55 quarts of grape juice. Have you ever had homemade grape juice? You should try it sometime. Best. Juice. Ever. (Plus our house still smells like my grandma's house! :))


We kept the boys while Christine and her mom made the church meal (cowboy stew - writing this post is making me so hungry!). While my mom got ready for church, Jackson decided to try on her glasses, which started a chain reaction and prompted me to make this collage:


For an update on Amie, she's doing well and thoroughly enjoying herself! Her favorite class is music writing (no surprise there) and she loves her roommates. Please pray for her friend, Leah - her mom went into labor a month early and had her ninth baby yesterday. They're both doing well but Leah hates not being home. If you could pray for her and her family I know it would mean a lot!




And that is all for this blog post. Hopefully I'll have something fun soon, but for now that's just all I've got! Amie said she's going to try to find time to take some pictures and send them to me, so maybe that will be soon. I hope you're all having a wonderful Monday!