That moment in life when suddenly the pieces of the puzzle begin to fall together. That moment. It's in that moment when suddenly you fall on your face, and in the silence wonder at the power of God.
Over time, the days, weeks, months, and often years of specific prayers, believing becomes a ritual. You believe it can happen. You believe it will happen. And yet, how long until it happens?
And it never rains but it pours.
All at once, it happens.
My prayers, oh so many of my prayers, have been answered in this year I thought the Lord would return. The first one, time. Just give me more time, Lord. And here it is, July. There - time.
The other? My friendships. I desired good, lasting ones. The ones that allow each person to hold the other up, strengthen their walk with God, and inspire them to reach for higher goals. And this summer, praying with my friends, singing, crying, laughing, and discussing our God, I realized I have that. Something I've taken for granted for too long.
Another, a group of things. Something I wanted not only for myself, but for so many. An opportunity to serve. I prayed that one friend might find the answers to a lot of questions about nursing in a third world country and mission work. That friend will be home from Papua New Guinea soon, after almost 2 months of serving in a medical clinic there. That - a dream fulfilled.
And lastly, for myself. I wanted to step out of my comfort zone, and I was, by lack of faith, specific about it. Slowly, please, Lord. Please just get me out of this comfort zone slowly. And that - that, was my downfall. I was too specific, I believe. But in June, my heart was changed. I gave it up to Him. Whatever He wants to take, I'm ok with it. Wherever He wants me to go, I'll go there. And there - there lies the desire of my heart granted.
In 2 weeks and 4 days, I will be on a plane with 9 of my friends for a ten day Missions Trip to Germany. Is that out of my comfort zone? Barely. Maybe not at all. My comfort zone has shifted, and I think it's God getting me out of it. Slowly.
Only He could work so mysteriously. Only He could open my eyes to see...all I had to do was give it up.
Only Christ is so powerful.
:) this made me tear and smile at the same time:) well written Kelley.
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